I don't have a catchy title...

Whewwwwww..... the last 4 days have been full of ALL of the emotions 😳🤷🏻‍♀️😭🍷😂🍷🥺. Our friend Tom passed away. For those of you that will read this, you probably saw my reel on Instagram that I made about him and the whirlwind of emotions that I went through.

I use Instagram and this space to connect to people who like to see real life. I wanted to share my experience and that is how the reel came about. Some of you might think that life is peachy for me 97% of the time. Or maybe you might even think I know what I'm doing..... Bahahahahahahaha.... crack my ass.. NOPE. I do try to heal my hurts and my past crap that affect my NOW. And I have come a. long. way. Forsure. But I still hurt. I still get blindsided by life, like I did on Thursday afternoon. And I still may use fermented 🍇's to help the sting not hurt quite so bad. (Which I know is not a great coping mechanism, but it's mine). And I am learning to accept it.

I just feel like I should write. And I don't even know if I have a specific reason to write or purpose. But Tom inspired/s me to DO LIFE. Do the things that make you feel great! So I write...

I know this. I have a new mantra in the background of my being. Be Like Tom. Because he was that kind, generous person. He was the person everyone secretly wants to be like. Even though we know we should not put people on a pedestal. We want to put him up there. (And he wouldn't have liked that 😁) He was a doctor, if you didn't know. And I know so many people that sing his praises because he helped them with something. And not just that he helped them.... it was the WAY he helped. He could make you feel like you were his best friend. He gave you time to BE. He gave you space. He was also wonderful to have around when you had a massive hangover...... 🤭😉

My husband does not outwardly gush about many people. Once in a while he will let a little gush seep out and many of those times it was/is about Tom. That says alot.

Tom loved life. And I am so glad I got to be his friend on this plane. It's really cool when you get to witness kindness and genuine 'being'. Like being without having to try kinda being.

I am always on an inner journey. Tryna figure out how to navigate this life of "I don't know what the fuck I'm doing" 😂 But I think one of the things I do know 100% is this.... Kindness is everything. Be kind. To yourself, to your friends, to your family, to people you don't know. I think that is all of our purpose's here.

Be Like Tom. ❤️

BTW... Tom is the normal looking one.....